let me first off just say I love birth.
I love hearing about it, I love reading them, and I thought it was the best part of pregnancy. I could get a high just thinking about korvin's birth or looking at our birth pictures.
I had an epidural with Korvin and everything turned out great, I really have no complaints, but I secretly wanted a natural birth. I never did enough research to prepare for it though and I didn't know what to expect. I also didn't really know anyone who had done a natural childbirth before to talk to them about it. so I just went with it and ended up with an epidural.
when I got pregnant the second time around I started to look into it a little more. there was a birth center in St. George that I was really interested in so I scheduled an appointment and brought Brady along with me to check it out. he wasn't really sold on natural birth yet and he definitely vetoed a home birth. we both loved it! I was also torn because I really loved my OB and I didn't want to leave him but if I was going to do this I wanted to go all in and I felt like I really needed/wanted the support that I could get from a midwife. Then when everything with the miscarriage happened, I was so disappointed by the way he treated me and didn't even check on me when everything happened that I was totally okay switching to a midwife.
now that we finally got pregnant again I am so determined to have a natural birth! I am really excited about it and I want this so badly. when we moved up here I had to do a lot of research because I didn't know anyone so I had NO recommendations or even know where to start! I really wanted to find a birth center up here but no one would except any insurance and since I was almost half way the wanted half the money up front before they would even see me! we hadn't planned on moving up here so we had to use every single thing we had and so we were so tight on money as it was I was so discouraged. there was no way we could afford what I wanted and I was afraid I couldn't have my natural birth that I wanted so badly!
my next search was midwives at a hospital but I was even having a hard time with insurances there. it was really frustrating and I felt so defeated that I just quite looking for awhile. I was talking to a friend awhile back and she had mentioned her sister was going to a midwife that she loved and delivered at a hospital, but at the time I was still set on a birth center that I didn't give it to much thought. but then I remembered her so I called them and we went to check her out. and I am so in love!
I can' tell you how excited I am and so relieved that I have found someone that we can actually afford and I trust so much. it has been such a blessing in our lives that I needed so much. the hospital we are delivering at is a birth friendly hospital and they encourage natural birth! how awesome is that?! they have Jacuzzi's to sit in and I can move around and eat and drink what I want while laboring, and they encourage delayed cord clamping, skin to skin, and breastfeeding, they also encourage rooming in so it is everything that I wanted and I just can't wait to give birth to this sweet little boy that I am carrying.
I love him more than words can describe already and I know he is just what our family needs right now, even thought right now we are financially stressed, and not sure what is going to happen, I know this is right and I couldn't feel more blessed.
Brady and I have both been reading birth books and he has been so supportive of what I want and is willing to do whatever it takes to help me accomplish this goal. he has been learning so many new things and he will get so excited reading these books and tells me all about them. I love it and it is already bringing us closer together as a family.
sorry this is a random post but it is such big deal in our lives right now that I wanted to write it down. and share how excited I am about this. so if you have any positive stories or tips for natural child birth I would love to hear them!